On your birthday

//Dedicated to my best friend Sumi - 20th March 2020


It was like beyond birth
Beyond birth I knew you...
When I met a thin dark girl
With those large beautiful eyes...

Your smile would talk...
It pulled me to you...
It would teach me in future
To talk in silence...
To mute when required

We grew together
Wishing we grew older together
We saw the troubled teens ...
Even troubled issues of heart...
The first infatuations
The first love...

Those shared days of laughters...
Those shared pains and tears...
Those shared endless fun..
Those shared moments of sisterhood...
Being opposites in character..
But being all the same in soul....

Then one day you leave...
An all alone me wondering where were you ...
You were in tears and sorrow somewhere...
A place where I was not there..
And then I get you back....
I try to hold you close...
without losing you again...

I agree destiny had different plans...
We had to move on our own..
I had to do things ...
which I was not used to without you...
We kept looking back at each other..
Walking on two opposite roads...

Those roads are meant to meet each other
Somewhere sometime..
And we would not have to turn back
But we just have to look forward
Into each other's eyes

Back to silent smiles
That talk wonders....
But today...let me tell you...
That I lost you but I know I could not...
I moved on but I needed you..
I forgot you but I could never...
I got angry with you but loved you even more...
What other best day I would get
To tell you all these...

To tell you ....
I am here...and you are supposed to be verymuch here...
Remember, we knew beyond birth,......
Happy Birthday my dear friend ...

പിറന്നാളാശംസകളെൻ അച്ഛനായി

//Dedicated to my father...14th March 2020


തീരാദുഖകടലിന് കരയിൽ നിൽകുകിലും കടലെടുത്തുപോയതു പ്രിയപെട്ടതൊക്കെയും എന്നറിയുകിലും
മകളെന്ന ഭാഗ്യമേ തനിക്കു ചേർത്തുപിടിക്കുവാനുള്ളുവെന്നു മനസ്സറിവോടെജീവിതമെന്ന പരീക്ഷയെ നോക്കിപുഞ്ചിരിയോടെ നിൽക്കുന്ന കെടാവിളക്കായി എന്റെ അച്ഛൻ എങ്ങനെയീമകൾ തീർക്കുവതീ സ്നേഹത്തിന്
കടമെന്നറിയുന്നില്ലച്ഛാ ശേഷിച്ചൊരാമഹാതജീവിതം
ആരോഗ്യവുംസന്തോഷവും ഈഹശ്വര ചൈതന്യത്തിന് നിറസാന്നിധ്യവുമാകുവാൻ നിറമനസ്സോടെ പ്രാർത്ഥന മാത്രം പിറന്നാളാശംസകളെൻ അച്ഛനായി
സ്വന്തം മകൾ

Happy Birthday Bestie

// Dedicated to my best friend Deepa -7th March 2020

You were not there in my pages..
In all those pages of my story..
Of childhood...of teenage...
Of adolescence...
You were not counted on..
In all those bright days of my story..
Of happiness...of richness...
Of laughters and fun...
And then the page turned abruptly...
To a dark one and even darker one...
In all those darkness of my story..
Of distress..of loss...
Of loneliness...
That was when you lighted a lamp...
And said..."here...look here....walk towards here".....
I saw the light.... for more bad days were yet to come...
And God saved you for me...
To hold me....
He knew I would even loose my own sibling....
It was all written on those pages....
But yes....he knew there could be someone to hold on.....
And from then on...
All the pages where written with your name
Of umpty number of laughters...
Of umpty number of tears..
Of umpty number of fears...
Of umpty number of......what not.....
We were together....
The coming pages of my story....
I don't mind what it's written of...
As long as I get even and even more years...to wish you...Happy Birthday.....
To keep thinking...how best I could wish you....
And write my own Pages like this....in my own words.....
Love you for all that you are my beloved..

Happy Birthday my bestie.....